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Thursday, February 21st, 2008
3:02 pm	I've been travellin' a hard road, looking for someone exactly like you I had a dream last night about going to California with a bunch of people from Rocky... mostly the gay boys, I think. I specifically remember Michael and Logan. I think I got lost at one point... I ended up at a weird bar, and a video store, and some weird public bathroom... eventually I caught up with the guys and we went to Disneyland. But we only rode a couple rides, and they were the same stuff we have here at Disney World. When we were leaving, I was saying "Man, there was something I really wanted to do but I never did, and I can't think of what it was now... I know there was something I always said I would do if I ever went to Disneyland!" and finally I remembered... the Tiki Room! I didn't go to the Enchanted Tiki Room! I loudly lamented this, and Logan was all "OMG TIKI ROOM!" and we started singing the Tiki Room music. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Van Morrison - Someone Like You (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 20th, 2008
11:26 am	Does it make you nervous? Oh it makes me nervous Had a dream last night about the end of the world, but it wasn't zombies this time. It was aliens. Aliens were coming down and slicing up our planet and frying people and whatnot. I was travelling on foot with somebody - - at one point it was George, but at another point I want to say it was Stephy, and at another point I think it was somebody else. It seemed like it was always night in this dream. Maybe the sun was blocked out with smoke? Anyways, we got some weapons and were travelling to major cities trying to find survivors, I guess to band together. The first couple cities we went to were gone. Just... gone. And at one point we noticed that all the cities that were gone had been encircled by something - - either a circular river or big circular fence or something. I wondered if the aliens had picked them just for being major cities or if having circles around these cities had made them into big targets from above. We eventually found an underground development, with a subway and a hotel and, surprisingly, some nightclubs. Yes, the club scene was still alive and well. At this point it was me and Stephy... we ran into this girl we knew there. I remember having a painting of this girl. She was black and she was GORGEOUS. I don't think she's anybody I know in real life, but in the dream me & Stephy both knew her. Anyways, we were talking to her while she was on her way to the club. I was being super-nice because I had a huge crush on her. Stephy started to walk away to go sit down somewhere, leaving me to talk to the girl. And all of a sudden she says something absolutely venomous, calling me pathetic or something. I walked away furious. I poured a glass of water or some kind of drink over the painting of her, ruining it. I sat back down across from Stephy, and she looked very surprised. I mumbled some kind of response about what a cunt the girl was. Later instead of me and Stephy it was me and George... we were checking into the hotel. It was a pretty decent room, what with the world ending. Squared was in the hotel too. I remember something about flavored coffee... they had all these CRAZY flavors of instant coffee. Mint and honey and all sorts of things. It was really thick when you mixed it up. But they only gave us enough supplies to make one cup. =( It was looking more and more hopeless, like there was no hope for humanity at all. And I knew that if we continued our journey the next day there was a chance we would be killed, that we might not even reach our destination. I was torn between continuing my journey or just staying there and fucking my way into oblivion with whoever I could find. I think I decided to continue the fight, but the dream ended before I got to the next morning. The weird thing is... you know how normally when you wake up you can't get back to a dream? I was waking up all morning when my alarm woke up, I hit snooze, and went back to sleep and right back into the dream. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: Mindless Self Indulgence - Brooklyn Hype (Part One) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 19th, 2008
10:54 am	In the mouth of madness, down in the darkness I had a dream night before last about going to this weird aquarium/museum type place... there were a lot of fish in tanks on displays, but there were also arachnid displays. In fact, I think some of the spiders were just wandering around loose. O_o I was visiting this place with my family. There was either a gift shop or some kind of antique store next door where we stopped to browse... they had a selection of laserdiscs, so of course I had to look... they had a laserdisc of 'Return to Oz', but for some reason the cover art was the same art as the 'Wicked' album cover. I wanted to buy it, but I started to cry right there in the shop because it made me miss Steph. My family had wandered away, and I wished there was somebody there, somebody to recognize my pain. Being alone just made it worse somehow. I had a less depressing dream last night. Me and Nene were flying somewhere... California, maybe? I'm not sure. It was going to be a long trip. But for some reason I went to the airport too early or something, and I had to go back to class and come back to the airport... I got separated from Nene too. The whole thing was just a disorganized clusterfuck. In the same dream I was reading my LiveJournal and Luna had posted something about Drew Hayes's work... like I had turned her on to Poison Elves or something... and I think she used Luse & Jace as a metaphor for our friendship, but she wanted somebody to draw her fanart from another series (some anime or something)... it's really hard to explain. Current Mood: sad Current Music: Rob Zombie - Demon Speeding (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 13th, 2008
12:30 am	Had a dream last night (I think it was last night, anyways) about something really wonderful that I'd just as soon forget, I think. Most of the rest of my dreams were not about wonderful things; most of them seemed to be about monstrous things. I've forgotten a lot, but I distinctly remember one about raising these bizarre reptiles... they were these strange lizard-tortoise-dinosaur-monster things. Snails would collect on the shells as they incubated, and as they were hatching you would need to throw several snails to each one for it to eat. I felt kind of bad for the snails. There were several lizards hatching, and I think they were somewhere between 6 inches and a foot from head to tail. The shells were filled with blood when they hatched. One of them had bitten into its sibling's shell, and I thought it was cannibalizing it, but I realized it was just helping it hatch. Very grotesque. I blame it on all the Lovecraft I've been reading lately. Wish I could remember the other dreams... because there were quite a few others. Oh! I dreamt about my old car (Strong Sad) night before last. Somebody else had bought my car and repainted it (still blue) but they had kept a couple of the stickers I left on it somehow. (IRL I didn't leave any stickers on it, but in the dream I guess I did, and they served as identifying marks.) I was so insanely happy to see my old car up and running. Like, really happy. I wanted to talk to the owner and ask them all kinds of questions, like where they got it and how much they paid and how they were liking it... I guess this is all my subconscious hoping it hasn't just been junked. =( Current Mood: nostalgic (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 9th, 2008
10:46 am	Okay... night before last I had a dream about a comic book store owned by the Grim Reaper. Okay, I don't remember him selling comic books specifically, but I remember lots of comic-book related merchandise. (And of course lots of kitschy Grim Reaper merchandise.) I was shopping there with a friend, and we saw an action figure 2-pack of Harley Quinn and, I think, Batman. They were DCAU versions of the characters. My friend asked me if I had that one, and I said yes, because it was just a repackaging of the DCAU Harley I bought some years ago. There was also a dream about getting off the Jaws ride at Universal and walking along a rocky path along the shore... I swear there was blood on the white rocks at one point. O_o Then there was a dream that I had a ring that would let me turn invisible and fly. I just sort of floated along on the breeze... Heather was there with me at one point. I think if I grabbed somebody they would turn invisible with me until I let them go. Honestly, I think I may have been up to evil... something made me think of the lilim, and demons who travel on the wind... particularly those who steal/kill children. I further make this association with the fact that in the dream I was flying around my old elementary school. O_o Last night I dreamt about a lot of things, but I really only remember two... in one dream I was on my way to some kind of Rocky gathering, I think, but I was sitting in the back of a van drawing portraits of myself. They were semi-cartoony, somewhat abstract... I think I was drawing pictures of myself before and after some kind of transformation. The outlines were simple ink, but for the coloring I had some kind of amazing markers... they were like... some kind of paint-markers. It was like drawing with makeup. For the "before" picture I had beautifully blended brown/sandy-colored eyeshadows. For the "after" one I wanted to do my glittery mint-colored eyeshadow that I wear a lot lately, but when I started drawing with that marker it was glittery but it kept spitting out different colors, so before long I had a big rainbow on my portrait's eyelid. It was pretty, so I just ran with it. It was hard to get a straight line with these markers, though, and in trying to clean up the edges I ended up with HUGE amounts of eyeshadow on. Okay, the last dream I had last night was the weirdest... I dreamt that the Cenobites had come for us (I don't remember who "us" was) and were going to take us to Hell... but Pinhead ended up falling in love with me. O_O (For whatever it's worth, he reminded me a lot more of David Warner than Doug Bradley.) In the end the Cenobites won and took a bunch of people back with them... and I saw Pinhead coming and I was like "Oh God he changed his mind and he's going to torture me forever! AAAAAAH!" but he was like "No, I'm staying here with you." and I was like "What? Really?" I'm pretty sure I proceeded to have sex with Pinhead. I had to be extra-careful, because he had nails all over his chest/torso too, not just his head. Over the course of the rest of the dream he seemed to become more and more human. I think eventually he would have no longer been recognizable as a Cenobite. I guess nailing Pinhead (so to speak, ha ha) beats being savagely tortured for eternity. What is up with me having these dreams about sickos/murderers falling in love with me? Current Mood: rushed (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 30th, 2008
10:56 am	Had a dream last night about playing this video game... it was first-person, and I mean first-person. I was actually in it. Can't remember what it was all about... it was two players in this big jungle/volcano-type area... the game was like a cross between Tomb Raider, DDR, and Guitar Hero. You kept having to do these challenges that would involve dancing or playing an instrument... hitting the right arrows at the right time, you know. I can't remember who I was playing against, but it was a handsome man of some kind of Hispanic heritage. Not sure if it was somebody I know in real life or not. There were dinosaurs too... the T-rex leaned waaaaay down to talk to me (he could talk!)... he accused me of being racist against dinosaurs. Later somebody pointed out that the other player kept bringing race into it by picking special Hispanic levels of the game or something that he knew he would be good at... I dunno. Can't perfectly remember all this. He was a really nice guy, and didn't realize he was doing anything that other people might perceive as wrong. There was more, but I can't remember it right now... Current Mood: rushed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 29th, 2008
4:21 pm	I had a dream a couple nights ago that I had a bunch of hairless rats like I used to... I came home from a trip and one of them looked like he was lying on his side in the cage, kind of collapsed... I was so scared that he was dead. As it turned out, he had somehow gotten his head stuck in some of the bars, and his neck was getting all twisted around. I raced over to help him, but before I could actually do anything he managed to extricate himself. At first I thought "Oh my God, it's so lucky I was here!" but as it was it looked like he managed to get himself out without my help. Go figure. I also had a dream last night about an occult shop... I don't know if I owned it or somebody else did. And I went home to take care of my rats, and I was adding fresh food and litter to each cage. (Not changing the litter, as such, just adding fresh wood shavings into each cage. There were 3 or 4 cages of varying sizes, I think.) Current Mood: uncomfortable (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 27th, 2008
1:38 pm	Huh... had a lot of weird dreams last night, but I can only remember little bits. I had several female hairless rats, and they had all just had litters. D: The babies were SO CUTE. Furrier than I expected, and bigger. They were roughly mouse-sized. I think their eyes were open already too. But they were SO FUCKIN' CUTE. And I had a dream that I had sex with Anubis. LOL. Mostly it was Anubis, I think at one point it was Isis and at one point maybe Thoth. Mostly Anubis. The consistency throughout all of them was that I was always on top. (Probably safer that way... XD ) Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Friday, January 25th, 2008
11:01 am	The only dream I remember last night is sitting in bed with a friend of mine... a guy friend, but I can't remember which one... I want to say it was Erik or George, _maybe_ Squared. Nothing going on, just laying there together watching TV or something. Apparently I hadn't shaved my legs in weeks, and I was SHAGGY. I was all "LOLZ, my leg hair is almost as long as yours!" Current Mood: numb Current Music: Twin Peaks - Laura Palmer's Theme (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 23rd, 2008
9:27 pm	Had an awful dream the other night about driving around at night with my friend Erik. We were leaving one of the Universal parking garages, I think. I was having trouble with my eyes; I had gunk in them or they were cloudy or something. I was blinking, trying to clear them. As I turned the corner, apparently somebody's car had broken down by the side of the road. It was a family - - a man and woman with a baby in a pink stroller. The woman and the baby were standing in the middle of the fuckin' road for some reason, and I just barely missed them. I thought about how close I had come to just driving right through them because I couldn't see them, and how horrible that would be. I was breathing a sigh of relief when Erik told me suddenly to watch out. I was like "What?" and I slowed down, almost stopping, but I couldn't see anything. Since I didn't see anything, I started to drive again, and then I hit something. I looked in the rear-view mirror and I saw a mother cat dragging the carcass of a kitten out of the road. I had run over a kitten with my car. I was horrified... I think I started crying. I also had a dream the next night about my friend Lana, I think, but I can't remember what it was about. Current Mood: hungry (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 19th, 2008
11:50 am	Sharpen up the blade, boys Oh, also, when I was dreaming about looking in the bookstore last night, I also found a bunch of DJ Conway books in the new age section... in addition to her shitty Celtic Magic and Norse Magic books, she had written a similarly formatted book on Futhark rune magic. Current Mood: okay Current Music: Voltaire - The Headless Waltz (Comment on this)
11:21 am	I'm having trouble remembering _most_ of my dreams last night... I had remembered some other things, but then I remembered one that drove everything else out. O_O I was working on something in the kitchen, trying to fix something, I think, and I managed to give myself an electric shock. Like, a BAD one. I collapsed against the cabinets under the sink, and my vision started to get dark like I was going to pass out. I screamed and screamed because of the pain and the shock. I wondered why Squared didn't come to see what was wrong. I thought I was screaming at the top of my lungs, but my voice was so hoarse almost nothing came out, so I guess he couldn't hear me. I was afraid I was going to pass out, or worse yet, die. But I managed to stand back up, and my vision was slowly starting to clear. I had another dream that I was at a bookstore. Timber was either with me or working there. For some reason he kept trying to kiss and bite the back of my neck, and I finally freaked out at him. He left me alone after that, and I went to look at books by myself. I picked up one book that was a coffee table book but the title had something about Santeria. It had a couple pages about the orishas, but overall it had very little to do with Santeria. I went to look at the New Age section to see if I could find an actual book on Santeria. I found Gonzales-Wippler's book and a couple of her others. I also found Konstantinos's book Summoning Spirits, which was a much larger book than I remembered. I wondered if they added extra content in the new edition. There were a whole bunch of guys milling around and looking at books. One guy, I guess the leader, asked for anybody who wasn't actually reading to raise their hand, I guess so they could move some of the group out. Everybody ignored him. I heard a woman get on the loudspeaker and say the same thing. She sounded a lot like my friend Keely from the Rocky cast. The guys finally listened to her. There was some big event going on in the bookstore that night, and apparently the woman I heard speaking was Elvira :D She was hosting the event, I guess. They showed some kind of Ghostbusters retrospective, and then things got really weird... toys running away... my brother was there... it all got really surreal. Current Mood: awake Current Music: Firefly - River's Dance (Comment on this)
Friday, January 18th, 2008
8:02 am	Can't remember all of my dream last night, just towards the end. In my dream I ran into a friend of mine who, IRL, I seem to have alienated... surprisingly, she seemed happy to see me. Her mom (who I've never met) was with her too, and her mom asked if I knew why I hadn't heard from my friend in weeks. I said no. They both laughed; apparently there was some big long story. Something incredibly dramatic had happened, I guess. They started to tell me what had happened, but we got interrupted... I guess they were going to finish telling me later. Heather and Terri were in the dream too, at some point... something really terrible (or maybe just really annoying) had happened to them. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 17th, 2008
10:34 am	Don't let yourself be hurt this time Okay, I had a dream night before last about joining a rock band! :D In my dream Squared and one of my other friends (it was a guy, can't remember who... maybe it was Damon?) had a band. Actually, there had been somebody else in it, but I guess he quit. They needed a new guitarist, and they asked me to do it! I was like "What? Really?? Okay!!" I was so excited. And they were like "Good, because we have a show tonight." I was like "What." They had a gig opening for somebody at the House of Blues that night. D: I was freaking out because I didn't know any of their songs, I was really out of practice on my guitar, I didn't know what to do... I'm thinking "Maybe I can just pretend to play?" or "Maybe I can just hang out flyers outside and not play tonight?" I went home and tried to find some awesome clothes to wear. I was a lot skinnier in this dream, because I was able to fit into my old plaid skirt. I was changing in front of the mirror, and I looked at my new tattoos. See, I had gotten a bunch of new tattoos. I had actually forgotten about some of them until I saw them again. I had gotten one just recently before the others even finished healing! There were a couple on my hips and one across my stomach and a couple others... they were all kind of swirly henna-type designs. Truthfully, they reminded me a bit of one of my friend Sheina's tattoos. But they were all girly shit :/ My hips had butterflies and flowers on them and stuff. :P I went over to Squared's house when I was ready. He lived with a bunch of other Rich Weirdoes. I came in and there were a lot of people hanging out. One friend of mine (not Squared, somebody else) was cooking at the stove wearing just his pajama pants, and there were scratches all across his back like, well, the kind I normally leave on him. I was jealous and hurt, which is hypocritical and wrong for so many reasons. (IRL, he had "plans" the night before, but I didn't ask with who. I guess this is my brain taking it to the most dramatic possible place. :P Stupid brain.) Current Mood: okay Current Music: Twin Peaks - Falling (Comment on this)